Today's blog isn't quite travel-related, but it does involve my traveling life and I know a lot of my friends kinda feel this way, so I wanted to talk about it.
Sometimes I just feel really lost. Not physically lost, like I don't know where I'm walking to (I have an excellent sense of direction and awesome map-reading skills) but mentally lost. Like I don't know where my life is headed.
Many people would consider me really lucky, since I travel so much. I have lived in two foreign countries and visited 7 (soon to be 8) others. I definitely have some wanderlust and really enjoy traveling and seeing the world. But, at the same time, sometimes I feel like I "should" be doing something else, like getting a "real job", going back to school, or doing something meaningful like joining the Peace Corps.
Also, I know teaching isn't the career for me, so the more time I spend teaching overseas, the more of a poser I feel sometimes.
It just hit me the other day that I will be 25 this year and in May, it will be 4 years since I graduated from college. And I feel like I have nothing to show for it. I still have no clue where my life is headed. It just strikes me as kind of pathetic. I'm supposed to be an adult, damn it. I feel like I need to get my shit together and make a decision about the rest of my life.
I think, if I had a partner, it would be different. I'd have someone to make decisions with, hopefully someone who would be better at decision-making than I am, but that doesn't seem likely to happen any time soon. Particularly not in France. I couldn't chat up a French boy if my life depended on it.
Is this normal? Do most mid-20 something's feel like this? Is this the dreaded "quarter-life crisis" I keep hearing about?
If so, what exactly do I do about it? Keep traveling, but also keep feeling lost, a little pathetic, and like I'm just a wishy-washy decision-maker? Or, go home and get a stable job, but potentially feel completely bored out of my mind? Is it possible to somehow form a combination of the two?
SOMEONE JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE.
That's all for today.